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White T-Shirt by BenBushnell White T-Shirt :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 0 0 Peebee Mass Effect Andromeda - Pixel by BenBushnell Peebee Mass Effect Andromeda - Pixel :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 3 0 The Biting Pear of Salamanca Large by BenBushnell The Biting Pear of Salamanca Large :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 2 2 The Biting Pear of Salamanca Small - Pixel by BenBushnell The Biting Pear of Salamanca Small - Pixel :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 1 0 Come Meet My Friend! by BenBushnell Come Meet My Friend! :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 0 0 Gimp Icon by BenBushnell Gimp Icon :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 2 0 I Wont Be Eaten! by BenBushnell I Wont Be Eaten! :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 6 0 Deviantart 16 - A Mash Up by BenBushnell Deviantart 16 - A Mash Up :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 3 0 Blueberry - GIMP by BenBushnell Blueberry - GIMP :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 2 0 Photo Restoration, First Attempt. by BenBushnell Photo Restoration, First Attempt. :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 2 11 Zhen - Just a tattoo idea by BenBushnell Zhen - Just a tattoo idea :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 1 0 Practice. I need a tablet! by BenBushnell Practice. I need a tablet! :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 1 0 Pixel Chest by BenBushnell Pixel Chest :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 2 0 Fallout by BenBushnell Fallout :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 1 0 Marcus - Fallout - Pixels by BenBushnell Marcus - Fallout - Pixels :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 5 0 Vault Boy - Pixel by BenBushnell Vault Boy - Pixel :iconbenbushnell:BenBushnell 4 0

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Night King by Ramonn90 Night King :iconramonn90:Ramonn90 296 16 Bedhead Mei by The-Pink-Pirate
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Bedhead Mei :iconthe-pink-pirate:The-Pink-Pirate 142 7
2B Lingerie by sakimichan 2B Lingerie :iconsakimichan:sakimichan 3,237 88 A2 by wlop A2 :iconwlop:wlop 1,392 27 Chloe Morgane - Hide by chloemorgane
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Chloe Morgane - Hide :iconchloemorgane:chloemorgane 29 1
The King of Ice and Fire by j-witless The King of Ice and Fire :iconj-witless:j-witless 271 6 Mirrorplane: Born Ready by Ctreuse109 Mirrorplane: Born Ready :iconctreuse109:Ctreuse109 99 4 Chloe Morgane - A Redhead's Cleavage by chloemorgane
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Chloe Morgane - A Redhead's Cleavage :iconchloemorgane:chloemorgane 60 4
Daenerys Targaryen by Ramonn90 Daenerys Targaryen :iconramonn90:Ramonn90 554 36 MERCY Winged Victory - Overwatch by Lolliedrop MERCY Winged Victory - Overwatch :iconlolliedrop:Lolliedrop 1,497 50 Ramsay by Ramonn90 Ramsay :iconramonn90:Ramonn90 291 40 Fionna's butt by Matthewlopz Fionna's butt :iconmatthewlopz:Matthewlopz 15 4 Whiskey in a Mug by angel5art Whiskey in a Mug :iconangel5art:angel5art 152 14 Warrior Women by angel5art Warrior Women :iconangel5art:angel5art 880 25 Beric Dondarrion by BillCreative Beric Dondarrion :iconbillcreative:BillCreative 301 10 Happy Shroom by SmashingRenders Happy Shroom :iconsmashingrenders:SmashingRenders 432 96

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Feeling much better today! Just
got to get on with life!
Unfortunately, two days ago, my Fiance and I ended our relationship.
It was something we had both come to agree on.
After a fantastic one and a half years with many great experiences, the relationship seemed to be dying.
Over the past couple of months we started seeing each other less and less. When we did see each other it just didn't feel the same as it had. Over the past couple of weeks she had almost stopped coming over completely, we have have only seen each other a handful of times in those two weeks.

It was making us both unhappy.
She distanced herself from me in space and emotionally as she didn't want to or know how to deal with the situation. I eventually got frustrated with the situation and asked her to come over to discuss things. When she arrived it did not take long before the words "It's not working" came out. Although I was prepared for this outcome it was still a crushing and devastating blow. I thought she was the one and she says she thought that too. We both wanted the same thing at first, to settle down, marry, have children, but as time went by her opinions have changed. Now I know this is most likely due to the six and a half year age gap, with her being just 18. She has come to the point in her life where she wants to be enjoying herself and partying, I am past that stage now, I want an easy life with a woman I love and the chance to start a family.

This was pretty much a mutual decision and we parted on as good a terms as possible, but i think that is what is making it hurt the most. If we had hated each other and fallen out i think the split would have been easier. It was so good i even helped her pack her things and take them out to her car. Gave each other a tearful hug goodbye and confirmed that we did love each other, just that we are in two different stages in our lives. 

Now I sit in a shell of a bedroom, decorations removed from the wall and items put away in drawers for the time being. Anything I see of her is a painful reminder of what we had and what i am now without. I refuse to destroy or dispose of any presents, cards or photos as this was not a bad chapter in our lives, just one that unfortunately ran its course to the end. I will be keeping our photos and memories on my computer in a file out of the way, so that one day i may decide to either keep them as the good memories that they are or delete them as to close the book on that chapter of our lives. Same goes for the presents and such, for now they are being kept out of sight until the day where i decide what to do with them.

As devastated as i have been, only two days on I am trying to feel better, stay busy and find things to do. 

Today she will be collected the last of her things, the tropical fish tank. This is a bit sad really as I enjoyed seeing them every night lighting up one corner of the room. Again the fish are another reminder of what we had so i am glad they are going with her. I can always buy more fish!

Well that is it for this depressing update.
Onward and upwards is going to be my aim, as well as maybe trying out a new diet, make myself more appealing to any future ladies haha!
Unfortunately, two days ago, my Fiance and I ended our relationship.
It was something we had both come to agree on.
After a fantastic one and a half years with many great experiences, the relationship seemed to be dying.
Over the past couple of months we started seeing each other less and less. When we did see each other it just didn't feel the same as it had. Over the past couple of weeks she had almost stopped coming over completely, we have have only seen each other a handful of times in those two weeks.

It was making us both unhappy.
She distanced herself from me in space and emotionally as she didn't want to or know how to deal with the situation. I eventually got frustrated with the situation and asked her to come over to discuss things. When she arrived it did not take long before the words "It's not working" came out. Although I was prepared for this outcome it was still a crushing and devastating blow. I thought she was the one and she says she thought that too. We both wanted the same thing at first, to settle down, marry, have children, but as time went by her opinions have changed. Now I know this is most likely due to the six and a half year age gap, with her being just 18. She has come to the point in her life where she wants to be enjoying herself and partying, I am past that stage now, I want an easy life with a woman I love and the chance to start a family.

This was pretty much a mutual decision and we parted on as good a terms as possible, but i think that is what is making it hurt the most. If we had hated each other and fallen out i think the split would have been easier. It was so good i even helped her pack her things and take them out to her car. Gave each other a tearful hug goodbye and confirmed that we did love each other, just that we are in two different stages in our lives. 

Now I sit in a shell of a bedroom, decorations removed from the wall and items put away in drawers for the time being. Anything I see of her is a painful reminder of what we had and what i am now without. I refuse to destroy or dispose of any presents, cards or photos as this was not a bad chapter in our lives, just one that unfortunately ran its course to the end. I will be keeping our photos and memories on my computer in a file out of the way, so that one day i may decide to either keep them as the good memories that they are or delete them as to close the book on that chapter of our lives. Same goes for the presents and such, for now they are being kept out of sight until the day where i decide what to do with them.

As devastated as i have been, only two days on I am trying to feel better, stay busy and find things to do. 

Today she will be collected the last of her things, the tropical fish tank. This is a bit sad really as I enjoyed seeing them every night lighting up one corner of the room. Again the fish are another reminder of what we had so i am glad they are going with her. I can always buy more fish!

Well that is it for this depressing update.
Onward and upwards is going to be my aim, as well as maybe trying out a new diet, make myself more appealing to any future ladies haha!

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RHGoldstein Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you for the :+devwatch: :hug:
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BenBushnell Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No Problem at all High Fave 
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CristianoReina Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch Blow kiss Rui Kiss Icon 

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SouredApple Featured By Owner May 26, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!
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BenBushnell Featured By Owner May 26, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No Problem at All!
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Twisted4000 Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2017  Hobbyist Filmographer
Thanks for the watch, means a lot. : )
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BenBushnell Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No problem at all :) Love your style :)
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customwaifus Featured By Owner Jan 13, 2017   Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch and helping my profile grow! I really appreciate it!
I hope you'll continue enjoy and support my art! <3
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BenBushnell Featured By Owner Jan 14, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
No problem at all! 
I hope you continue making your art as much as your watchers enjoy viewing it :D 
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Christopher-Stoll Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!
If you enjoyed my anatomical artwork please check out my PokéNatomy Kickstarter!

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